A teary day

Well, we had to take Autumn to the vet this morning to be put to sleep cause she was in to much pain, least her crying sounded like she was.  Dang that's so hard to do...we've only done it one other time.  I so hate crying in front of people, but there was no way I could hold back the tears.  Thankfully they were really nice, even though we had pulled them into the office on a Sunday morning, so I didn't feel so bad about the tears running down my face.  Poor hubby...he was fighting them too...he has always said he couldn't be there if we had to have one put down, but it turned out he was, although not right in the room.  I stayed with her though, she was MY baby girl after all, and stroked my hand down her side as she lay on the table till she was quiet and still.

As bad as it hurts to have lost her, I'm so thankful she isn't in pain any more.  She started crying in the night...not sure why she had pain, since we didn't know exactly what was wrong, but it's good she is out of pain at the very least.

We have lots of memories of her now, and she will live on in them.  Peaches has been a little off today, although we did get her to play a little bit so hopefully she won't be to upset with us for not bringing her sister back home with us (although we did...she just didn't see her, we buried Autumn by the Orchard fence with an apple - since she loved them so - and her favorite toy).

Not sure when we will get another puppy...depends on when we can find one and if we can find the money for one.  I hate to wait to long...but then again, that didn't work last time cause Autumn never did totally warm up to Peaches, so...we will get one when we get one.  It's totally up to God at this point, finding us the perfect one like he did last time.  Not as a "replacement" for Autumn, as she can't be replaced, but so Peaches has a companion...which hopefully she will enjoy more than she did her last one, but after our experience with Autumn and Peaches, I won't hold my breath on that one.  LOL

I'll do a post about Autumn in a few days, when I get time to decide what to tell about her life.  One of our niece's is coming for a short visit today as it happens, (totally out of the blue and she didn't even know about Autumn...so nice that God is sending her to help take my mind off my baby girl!) as well as tonight being game night, so I don't have time to come up with anything even half way good.

Autumn was a wonderful fur baby, and we will miss her so!  We LOVE you baby girl...you will be missed!